being a little selfish.....

yep, I am still here, and still pregnant. Good and bad, good that little baby is still growing and healthy! that is always a good thing, bad part, mom is falling apart, which means yes my whole life has fallen apart. The house is trashed, laundry doesn't get done, there are only healthy meals when I suck it up and cook, other than that its top ramen. My kids have thrown away thier entire organized schedule even though I have it written out on the calandar. The kids are cranky cause dad forgets to look at clocks and seems to always let them stay up too late. So on one hand I am grateful my baby gets a chance to grow more, but on the other hand, I am more than ready. I have hit the end, I am done hearing, wow you are bigger than you have ever been, and is that thing ever going to come out, my poor kids get yelled at every time they ask me if I am going to have the baby today, my response: you will know when the baby comes out, now quit asking me!!! I know people mean well, but the things they say at the end of a pregnancy never come out right. My poor family is walking on eggshells around me, which for those of you who know me, know that I am usually quite mellow. So psyco mamma is on the loose, in fact, I got fed up with my ob over the last 2 weeks for a long list of reasons, and decided to find a new dr. this week, I go see him tomorrow. So lesson here: Never make a pregnant woman mad!! I don't know if it was the right decision or not, but I am happy with it, so I guess that is what counts at this poing.I am anxious to see this little one, and to show him off! I do want to thank everyone for their support, I know you all mean well, but I think for now, I will take my back labor, and my migraines and crawl in a dark quiet hole till this little man decides to make his appearance. (hopefully soon)

professional skaters....... I think not!

 So, the kids school had a family skate night, and since I haven't done much with the kids, because I haven't felt very good, I thought it would be fun to take them! so I loaded myself on headache meds and off we went! Zach and his friend got  blades, Joey and his friend got skates, Alli and abby got skates, and jason chose a scooter. Jason was a wild man, and loved every second of it. Zach did really well with his blades, and had a blast. My girls, not so much, abby spent more time on her behind than on her skates, and alli would only skate around on the carpet. but joey, wouldn't even skate big chicken! He took his skates off, and brian kept eyeing them for a while before he decided to go ahead and try skating, well he went around once,and did ok, then he was skating with alli, and got his skates tangled in hers and went down. We are still not sure if his wrist is broke or not, and he sure is sore today, but he had fun anyway :) Maybe if he hurts bad enough, he will go to the dr. but I doubt it.

 They had different kinds of races, Here is jason in the scooter race. he didn't win, but he sure was proud of himself! And he was fun to watch.

 Abby wanted to do the sock race, she sure was cute running in her little stockings! she didn't win either, but she had a lot of fun.

And I am not sure what happened with my pictures, but this one is of me at 36 weeks!!!! I am so almost done, and I have to say I can't wait, I have been in such a bad mood, and in so much pain, with back labor for the last4 weeks, and a migraine for the last almosts 2 weeks sure makes for a mean  momma. I had high hopes my  dr would agree to start me at 37 weeks and get me out of my misery, but he informed me that he wouldn't start me till I hit 39 weeks because the baby is measuring at only 33-34 weeks it will give him a chance to catch up a little. but the thought of going 3 more weeks was too overwhelming for me, I cried for 2 days, and I still breakdown a couple times a day, but I really want this baby to be healthy. I am so torn, I have been on so many meds for my migraines that I feel the baby will be better off out of my body, but it seems I am the only one that thinks that. As I tell everyone everyday, I am DONE!!! I promise after delivery I will have more positive blogs, but for now, just saying it as it is, I am just plainly in a bad mood!! And I have bad thoughts about my dr that I thought I liked, but likeI said, I am sure it will all change once I hold my little baby! I am going to get more steroid shots in my head to get rid of this migraine, so that when it comes time to deliver, I can acutally do it without my head exploding, so that is my little soap opera life, I will let you all know when baby carroll gets here and I am happy again!!!
I do have to mention that besides the couple of phone calls I get from downey a week, which always make my day, I was grateful for the fraziers who sent down some real, straight out of the ground idaho spuds for me! what a treat.

the things kids say..........

 Ok, I have to say, all my kids say adorable things, (mostly cause they take after me) but this kid takes it to a whole new level!! He is always cracking us up. Everyday for homework he has to read a book to someone, and have it signed, the other day we asked him who he wanted to read to, he looks at all of us sitting there, and starts eeny  meenie miny mo, well he stopped on me :) then he said Alli! I just ran out of meenies.  Another funny moment.... I can't even remember what happened but jason stopped and looked at everyone and said "I did not see that coming" And of course thanks to our cars wii game and lightning mcqueen, his new favorite word, "perfection"  he says things like, "this dinner is perfection" or " I look like perfection today" or " I was like perfection at school today" And of course when it comes to cooking, he has requested cinnamon toast for breakfast every morning, well this last weekend, brian got to make his toast. well it was a bit darker than mom makes it, he picked it up and looked and looked at it, then said, "your awesome dad, but mom is a better cook than you" then after he tried another piece of toast, dad finally made it to, you all know by now...."perfection" maybe you just have to be there, but I think its funny, and I think this adorable boy is perfection.

And as for this miracle picture, I have not been feeling very well lately, I have 5 weeks left of this pregnancy, and have been suffering with back labor pains, and migraines, my latest lasting the last 5 days, so I started dinner ( a lovely dinner of 2 different kinds of hamburger helper) and joey came up to see if I needed help, so even though it was mostly done, I asked him to stir while I got plates out. So this is proof that joey can help!!! He does it in his own style, but he helps!!
And in other baby news, I went to the dr. yesterday, got my steroid shot, and some meds for my migraine, (not helping yet, but I am hopeful) baby is still small, he should be just over 5 pounds now, and he is hovering around 4-4 1/2 lbs. or so they think, I am not sure how exactly they  can say that, but we will see. We are all anxious to meet this little no name man. hopefully a name will come to us the second we see his little face. lately  I have been calling him rocky cause he is beating me up! There is crazieness going on in me the last week or so. I am grateful for the good weather lately, I have not had to deal with much snow, or ice, so for that I am happy! after I have this baby, I can't wait to see the white stuff again!

organization yea!!!

ok so one of my major goals of 2012 is to become and stay organized, it has never been my strong point, but I have always wanted it to be. I found this calender, and I am going to follow it this year, I thought I would share it because I am so exicted to get organized!! And this makes it easy, so if you want to follow it too, great, if not, thats ok too, just wanted to share it!
http://go.tipjunkie.com/go/pr/7525/www.mysimplerlife.com/2012.htm

goodbye 2011!!!!

Ok!! so most of my friends and family know all about the  difficult year of 2011 for us. First of all, during the begining of the year, I was having a difficult time raising our adorable 5 kids all by myself, it just keeps getting harder, so brian and I had many discussions about how to get him home more, but at the same time, his work was keeping him longer and longer in north dakota then he got layed off. so he started looking for work, He finallly found a job in salt lake. So he basically moved in with his parents, which didn't fix our problem of me raising our kids alone, so we made the difficult decision to put our house up for sell. Brian was excited, I was aprehensive. Then we  found out about our surprise baby! We weren't quite sure if this was good or not, but of course all babies are blessings, It was just a shock. So I told brian I can't raise 6 kids alone, we needed to be together, so he started looking for a place for us in Ut. and found one at the end of july, However as my downey friends know, the fair was the first week in august! So packing didn't happen for me untill the week we had to move. So thanks to all my friends that helped us out!! It was crazy, I also almost misscarried that week, but things turned out ok there! So we left our home, and our wonderful friends and started our new adventure in utah. And what an adventure it has been. As I have said before, so I won't bore you with the detailes, the kids have done WONDERFUL!! They adjusted better than I ever imagined they would. Brian loves where we are, and then there is me, I am homesick. I miss my friends and home in downey. It is so hard for me to adjust knowing that this place is temporary. So we finished the the year and had hopes and dreams of a better 2012, so far, I am frustrated, our stove has been out for a week, and I ruined our microwave (long story there) so life has been interesting. but on the plus side, I went to my O.B. today, and my little baby boy has grown a little, I am now 34 weeks along, and he is measuring at about 31 weeks, he is little, but still trying to grow! so we are plugging along and getting anxious to see this little one! And of course once I have him, I can plan a trip back to downey to visit!!! So as for 2012, I have made a few goals, to be more positive, to get organized, and to be a better mom and wife. So wish me lots of luck on my goals, I need it!!!