grrrrrr

OK, so here comes my venting once again! I am frustrated! I know Dr.s are smart, but I think that they expect a problem (aka gallbladder) to have a certain set of symptoms and if it doesn't follow those symptoms it must be something else. But I say, "what if"!!!! So It has been about a month now that after I ate, I started feeling uncomfortable, right under my right rib just kind of felt crampy a little, well over the last month it has increased in pain A LOT. The crampy feeling is constant, and now when I eat the crampy feeling is like a stabby pain that moves to the back, but it happens right after I eat. The dr. said if its gallbladder it wouldn't happen about 20-30 min after I ate, I said , what if it did???? Would that be so crazy. So my family dr. sent me for an ultrasoud, they found the lesion on my liver and sent me for a ctscan. that found a tumor on my adrenal gland, so he sent me to a surgeon. I had been so scared knowing I have a tumor. the first thing the surgeon said was he wasn't worried about the tumor!! so why did my dr immediatly send me to a surgeon, ugggg. so confusing. So it all leads back to gallbladder right?? not so fast. The surgeon said he thinks it may just be an ulcer or something, but he wants to look at the function of my gallbladder before he just goes and removes it for no reason. so more tests....... And these tests scare me to death. in fact I am shaking in my socks right now as I am writing this, tomorrow morning, I have to go in and have a GI scope done to watch the function of my gallbladder, and even though I will have a mild sedation, I am thinking mild is not nearly strong enough. massive sedation sounds more like it. I gag brushing my teeth, so i am not sure how well this is going to work out tomorrow, but we will see. Then monday morning I go in for a HIDAscan, now this one sounds interesting, I get shotup with radioactive tracer in my veins, I get to lay on a table for over an hour while a camera passes over me and takes pics of my insides. But this will see if everything is working the way it should. So After all this it may end up being my gallbladder!!!! I will let you know. I go back to the surgeon next wednesday to talk about the results of my tests. I am telling you, I hope I survive all these crazy tests.

april fools to easter and a few things in between

 Joey and zan man hanging out watching tv together. The brothers like to just chill out on the weekends.

 ok, before you freak, i know this looks really gross, its meant to, I made this for april fools day. It was pretty funny. Its brownies squished together to look, well, like poop. We gave it to the kids, and told them that they got to eat "crap" for dinner, they looked at us like we were crazy, Brian picked one up and took a bite, they all just gagged, they still couldn't eat it. it was pretty funny. That is all we did this year, but it was a doozy :)

 Jason was sent up to bed the other night, and for some reason he decided that he wanted to fall asleep in our doorway. he was so cute I had to get a picture. goofy kid.

 Little Zander snoozing on dads chair. He is growing so fast!

 Abby, Jason, and Alli dying easter eggs. they were having a blast, they took their job pretty serious. (well alli did anyway)

 seems like everytime I snap a pic of zach he has to pull a face, so instead of yelling at him to smile, I am embracing the dorky faces. this one is showing off the nice blue mouth from the candy he had eaten earlier. NICE! And of course Joey, he ususally pulls goofy faces, but I acutally caught him inbetween funny faces :) The big boys had a good time coloring eggs this year. Its so fun that they still enjoy it.

 My big baby and little baby, lol, love these 2! just hanging out while the kids colored eggs.

 Easter morning, the kids actually slept in, it was wonderful! They were so happy! Here they are checking out their buckets. They big boys were a little slower.

And of course a holiday can't go by without me making something. So this year I made tyedied waffles, they were so much fun. and the kids loved them! Overall a very successful holiday. We had a wonderful day at church. and enjoyed spending the day together as a family. We also got to spend saturday with my family, my cute little niece saydee got baptized saturday morning, we love these family experiences.

Also just a little side note. for those of you following my little dr. drama, just to catch you up, after I had Zander, I was having a little problem with not feeling well after I ate, started thinking it was gallbladder, I had my tubes tied, then the problem got worse, I went to the dr. last week, sent me in for an ultrasound, and they found a lesion on my liver, so then sent me back in last night for a ct scan, I am now waiting for those results. I will keep you posted on what I find out, hopefully I will hear soon, the waiting is making me crazy!!!